Still Blue; Life Sucks

 I'm still blue over the death of my dog, Kodi.  Grief has no purpose but to make you miserable, it doesn't change anything.  I wish there were an easy way to switch it off.  I will never switch off my love for Kodi and I look forward to being with him someday in an afterlife so often spoken of by psychics and near death experiencers.  However, I have to endure the last years of my life before I can get there.

I often feel like I would like to die, in the assumption that death would terminate all human suffering, but that is not guaranteed.  The thought is based on the assumption that there is no soul, that all human consciousness and feeling end with death of the body, and that is an assumption that I reject.  However, there is another possibility:  that death will reunite you with your deceased loved ones.  

Many people have described death as "going home," believing that dying is only going back where you came from.  Then you would see your deceased loved ones, including pets.  This is probably why so many near death experiencers plead with the hosts of heaven to allow them to stay in the afterlife, when they have been told they must go back because their time is not yet.